i just hate them

salam everyone. im back!!!

there's only 2 weeks left for me to stay in medical department. thank god, i passed the viva session and right now im just concentrate on completing my dear green log book.

well, 3 month + in medical department, i've seen so many patient, with so many complaint and and many 'disgusting' behaviour.

but, that is the reality of my job. treated them with the best knowledge i have.

actually, there's one group of human being that i hate most.

that group name.......the 'hardcore' smoker

i face them everyday. and it become more and more and more because currently i'm in chest team and managing the chest clinic.

i have a lot of reasons to hate them. and i couldnt find any reason to like them.

they smoke everyday. they know smoking cause harm to themselves but they keep on smoking and smoking and smoking. actually, i dont really care about the future outcome for their own action. let them be. because for me, they have a very well sound mind to think about it. and i didnt hate them because of that reason.

i hate them when their illness (that they got from smoking habit) cause problem to others especially their wives and children. sometimes, they came to ward at 3am, because of shortness of breath. and that time, u will see the wife with red eyes came together with a small baby in hand. i dont like seeing that. because the husband seek the problem and drag the wife into it.

but, the no one reason why i hate smoker is....

when i walked in the ward at 2-4am during my oncall, i will see the wife, sleeping on the hard dirty floor to be together with the husband. there's one wife, came to me, begging me to let her husband home because she worried about her 3 years old son while her husband requesting to me to keep him in the ward for the next 2 week and just let him home 2-3 day before raya. the reason.......he dont want to fast. and he never think about the little boy at home.

i not gonna write here about the dangerous effect of smoking. im not gonna touch about the way to stop smoking. because, i dont think im in a correct position to talk about it.

u might think that i should talk about it right?

yes, i am a doctor. but i am a doctor who have a brother that happily smoke 20 sticks per day.

and that is a failure to me. and thinking about my sis in law sleeping on that hard floor already give a chills to me. but, what can i do when they are in the 'hardcore' smoker.

so better stop here. change to mood raya.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....