it supposed to be my holiday....

hey all

The monsoon season has arrived. rain poured down the earth.

in fact , beginning this December my husband and I will go to penang to attend two weddings. I'm very excited about this plan since last month . even , 2 hotels already been booked by us to stay there for 5 days . there will be a little reunion between me, noddy and nurul.

However, last night my husband got a message from a neurosurgeon in Johor stated that he must present in HSA on 6-8 december to attend the entrance exam for the master program in neurosurgery.no weddings to attendno reunionno holiday

yes ... i am so dissapointed with that. end up canceling all my hotels booking and informing my friends about the 'bad ' news .

and i will spend my ' supposed to be my holiday ' in terengganu . in the rain .......

trying to be positive....it was cancelled due to some reason. for better future for both of us....

broken

fragile is the word that can describe the state of ME right now. so many things that playing in my mind and me....prefer to chew it slowly and alone.

I couldnt accept any blow right now. as today, one patient walked into my room, scolded me because her long hour of waiting, acting like I was not doing my work in my room. that blow made the crack inside of me getting bigger and bigger and bigger and then, broke into pieces. and I just simply cried.

 weak....and I hate it.

isyania....b strong. u r strong. keep chewing it like before. as always....