my rhapsody

my rhapsody stops for a while......
to allow me to concentrate on my study for final exam.
wish me luck my dear readers.

an escape

last weekend, some maintainance was done to my Desa and because of that, all of us have to spend a saturday without electricity. well who wants to spend a weekend in a room, in a hot climate country and doing nothing right?

so i planned an escape.

i asked noddy to come and join me and we rented a car for half a day. since we just got a very limited time to live in this 'lovely' USMKK, we decided to go a bit higher than KB. so last saturday, we were heading to rantau panjang, with an aim to 'cuci-cuci mata' only.

before that, i called my mum. telling her about my plan, going to rantau panjang with noddy. she didnt mind about that, but she asked me to bring 1-2 guys as peneman. i said WHAT? mum, im 24 and i think both of us can manage ourselves there. so i said to her that we dont need guys. we want to have a girly talk in a girly trip on a girly day. what a girly girly girly escape.

well, everything seem to be so girly until.......

our small old rented car, dead on a bridge at pasir mas. this is not girly ok. well, we successfully cause some havoc on the bridge for sure. we stepped out from the car, and try to make 'muka kesian' to some motocyclists, but it didnt work. hehe so rugi mey. if you stop, i'll give you noddy's phone number for sure. haha

then, one uncle stopped and help us. we pushed the car out from the bridge, and then one mechanic came and offered his help. spend almost 2 hours there.

when the car was on the road again, i started to think. no wonder out of sudden my mum asked me to bring some guys. looks like she got some instinct about this. before this, she never asked me to to do that. NEVER. guess she got some superpower. hehe

anyway...the trip was fun. and we end up buying a lot of things. jump from one shop to another. picking all the beautiful stuffs that catch our eyes.

the fifth

alhamdulillah...

with no lunch today (again), i successfully completed my labour room requirement. happily conducted a delivery of a healthy cute baby boy. emmm i wish that one day, he will be someone that his parents proud of. someone that don't cause headache to his parents. someone that bring happiness to his family and the most important is...become someone that is smoke-free (penting tu). and i do hope, this is the last baby i conducted as a medical student. amin....

see how cute he is. i couldnt stop myself from pinching his cheek. i waited around 3 hours before he came out. the process is so sekejap. just 5mins i guess. well he is the fifth baby from his mother. so no wonder it is so sekejap. looking at this baby.... bring another desire to me. i want to see nurul's baby plak. i hope my instinct will be true. amin!

p/s: kini sudah mampu tersenyum (~_^) walaupun requirement clinic x setel2 lagi.

*frustrated

read this post, i need someone to share!

currently, im in OnG posting. in this posting, we got a log book that full with a lot of requirement to be fulfill at the end of the posting. and one of the requirement is i MUST conduct 5 deliveries. yeah, it sound so easy and simple. but to get that 5, i have to be in labour room for hours. not all pregnant ladies come to labour room and deliver the baby in 1 hour. some, until up to 8-10 hours. and all you have to do, cover the case, prepare the patient, noted the progress and when the time come, conduct the delivery.

everything went well to me until today...i covered one case for my third delivery. she was admitted to labour room at 1030am. so i covered the case, marked her progress, updated her condition to doctors, counted the contraction in 10mins and even gave her a sip of plain water. i did almost everything in a hope that i will conduct the delivery.

clock shown 330pm. the doctor came in, did the VE and that time, the cervix was 7cm dilated. doctor decided to review the patient again in 2 hours. since i wasn't perform my zuhur prayer yet, so i decided to left my patient for a while and went to surau.

it just 5-10mins....

and when i came in that room again, i saw the placenta. repeat....PLACENTA!

i was so damn frustrated that time. and all i can say was...."cikgu, kenapa x tunggu saya?" (note: my patient is a teacher)

i know i shouldn't ask that question. but my frustration clouded everything. even, that time, i was almost crying in front of my patient.

you know, it is not easy for you to get one case and conducted it. sometimes, it ended with vacum assisted, or c-sec. in my case, i was frustrated cause i waited for almost 5 hours in that room, ignoring my empty stomach that crying asking for lunch, skipped the c-sec operation, just in a hope that i can conduct the delivery. then, just because i left her for 5-10min to spend time with my god, the baby came out. at first i was quite mad with myself. but then, positively i said to myself....

"maybe u miss this oppurtunity to conduct that case, but at least u did what u have to do as a muslim. pray to ur god and have a blessed life. dont worry, there's a lot of pregnant ladies out there. they just wait for their time to come to the labour room."

and then one pregnant lady came in.... and after 2-3 hours waiting, i conducted her case. that's the third, and i need another 2 cases to complete my requirement.

by the way, i met my school senior in labour room. batch 25. initially, i didnt recognized her, but then she said hi to me, and told me that i was her junior. and then all the sesma-kind-of memories flashing back to me. and yes, i know her. she worked as HO in labour room, and throughout the day, we just talking about all the people we knew in sesma. kind of happy to have someone you knew during your working day. at least, a little chit chat helps u to reduce the pressure.

now, feels better after sharing all those things that happen to me today with you. thank you for spending your time reading my 'frustration'.

c ya...take care!

it's 5 years already!

i can still remember when the 1st time i played in usmkk netball team almost 5 years ago. being the youngest among the top 7 players, one of the scariest thing to me. my partner during that time was kak faiz, a final year medical student. i was a GS and she played GA. u can see the gap, and how the junior-senior thing affect the way you play. i was afraid that i made mistakes that time, worried if my shooting not go into the ring, or passing the ball wrongly. but thank god...i managed to go through it.

then, time goes by.....

now im the one, the final year student that still playing for usmkk netball team. and my partner...a first year sport science student. because i've gone through that phase before, im trying to reduce the gap between us. i dont really care about junior-senior things. as long as they respect me, the i'll respect them. and chemistry went well between us.

last week, SUKAD for netball was held here in USMKK. and praise to god, our team won gold, and junior got silver. i played in that team for five years, and i am proudly said that i was successfully completed my gold medals collection. from year 1 to year 5. and to juniors...seriously, i am so proud of you. before this, i am quite worried to leave the team, without a good base since a lot of seniors are leaving the team next year. but, from your performance in sukad last week, i am no doubt about leaving you. cause i can see how good you are, playing for victory.

because of my dissappointment in masum last year, i fight so hard to bring the masum centralization for netball to usmkk. finally, we got that centralization. and by our big winning in sukad last week, now we can justify to them why we want the centralization to be here. so juniors, use that opportunity to improve ur skill.

these are some of the snap during sukad last week. so, take a look k.

team nurani - gold. beat murni 31-14

team murni - silver

gold and silver medalists

murni-nurani. they can split our name, but not our spirit.

so, sukad time was over. so, time to rub the burned skin and be prepared for PRO 3 exam. it just 28 days left.

p/s: today, i played in Kejohanan Piala Pengarah Kampus, and won the gold. congratulation gurls. and to dama, u rock today girl. trust me, u still got the touch although u left netball for so many years. thanks for joining us.

tasya ooo tasya

tut tut....tut tut....tut tut...

mama: assalamualaikum...
me: waalaikumussalam. watpe mak?
mama: em ade kat hospital neh, jaga tasya.
me: patut la bising...dia watpe?
mama: ade tu, duk main ng bear dia. kak cakap ape kat tasya aritu?
me: huh? ade ke?
mama: ala pasal dr firdaus.
me: damn!

hehe.....actually i did talk about dr firdaus with tasya on the day of my visit. but i was just joking around with tasya about him. and that little girl got a very strong memory to memorize about what i said to her, and blurted it out again in front of dr firdaus and nurses in that ward during round. haha so sweet la si tasya neh.

the story goes like this....

me: tasya...tasya....kak nurul nak taye leh?
tasya: pe dia?
me: dr yg rawat tasya nama dr firdaus kan? hensem x?
tasya: emmm (sambil angguk kepala)
me: dia da kawen blum?
tasya: tak tau.
me: kalu kak nurul nak ngorat dia bleh? kak nurul pun doctor jugak. hehe cume tak rasmi je lagi.
tasya: hehehe.....
me: rilex tasya, kak nurul gurau je. jgn bgtau dia plak. kak sya xmo doctor.
diqma: xpe2, kalu kak nurul xmo, bagi kat kak ma.
me: lor...ke situ plak dia.

then we laughed.......

days after that....dr firdaus came to her ward.

dr: tasya, camne arini? ok?
tasya: emmmm ok. dr da kawen blum?
dr: knape? tasya nk kawen ng dr ke?
tasya: emmm x. kak nurul nak ngorat dr.
dr: sape kak nurul tu?
tasya: dia pun dr jugak.
dr: dr kat mana?
tasya: xtau, tapi dia mmg dr.
dr: ishk ade2 aje tasya nih.

then one nurse (who saw me coming to the ward that day) interrupted.

nurse: ok la dr. yg tu single, dr pun single.
dr: hehehe (tersipu malu)

my mum told me about that during our phone conversation that night. and we couldn't stop laughing....

tasya....tasya....as i told you, she is a sweet girl.

overseas vs malaysia

someone said,

"personally, i would advice all of u to go back and work for the country..."

this is one of the status in FB that attracted me to give my comment, wrote by one of malaysian medical student in Ireland. actually, she is my old friend from secondary school. it was a statement came from one of the medical consultant from HUKM during their visit to Ireland and my friend was there.

personally...i have my own view.

for me, they should come back to malaysia. just imagine, our parents worked days and nights to support their study in oversea. by time, after they got their scroll, they should come back and work for malaysians. that is how they should do to repay all the money that malaysians showered to them during their 5-6 years in oversea. that's a lot dude. they even can travel to many places during the summer holiday. but, some of them....seem to be not so clear about this. just because overseas offer a lot of money, they go blind, and work for them. don't blame me about being straight about this. i spend 5 years in medical school in malaysia, and i know how heavy each doctor's workload because of not enough doctors in hospital. and we, as malaysian doctors....should do something about that. be responsible and do our best to work for our own race and nation.

yes, i am patriotic kind of person. so what?

one other thing that i wanna stress here is about contract. a lot of my friend being fussy about that. some of them think that 10 years contract is a long period of time being attached with the government. if you think that u cant do it or u wanna go to private practice earlier, and get a lot of money, why u sign that damn contract at the first place?

this is some of the comments came from one the doctor (a consultant respiratory physician in Queen Elizabeth hospital) about that statement. someone who is very senior in his field. and i am totally agree about that.

"Ada setengah orang dah habis belajar sampai jadi pakar tapi tak mau balek kununnya gaji banyak kat overseas dan glamour. Sorrylah. We welcome you back if you want to help the rakyat, but if you prefer to stay on, good luck dan bantulah orang lain if that's your wish."

"When I first arrived in Dublin in 1983 as a young student, I was told by a JPA officer "You datang ke Dublin untuk cari ilmu nak tolong rakyat bila dah berjaya, jadi baleklah bila dah berjaya. Rakyat tak halalkan wang yang dibelanjakan untuk kursus you kalau you tak mahu balek". Standards of medical care in Malaysia are excellent we can even do heart-lung transplant tak payah nak hantar ke overseas. Some overseas doctors even come to Malaysia for training. Tepuk dada tanya selera."

":) sapa2 yg nak syok on cloud 9 dengan mat salleh, biarkan saja."

well, the last sentence is a bit pedas la. but that's the truth. if i am a bussineswoman...i wont invest in the business with no profit. if i am the one that pay the tax every year, and part of the tax goes to the medical student that dont even have a thought to come back and work for malaysians....what a waste. and i have right to refuse since i gain nothing from that. so think...

p/s: i'm not adressing 'them' as all malaysian medical students outside of malaysia. just a little of them. very little. my point is so simple. siapa makan lada, dia terasa pedas ye. siapa makan gula, dia terasa manisnya.

CNY holiday part 3

"aduh, aduh cakit ye meci. doh la tu. adik cejuk da nih. adik cejuk. aduh cakit meci. cakit..."

this is a story that my mother told me about this little girl named tasya. adik tasya. a story showing how strong she is, going through all the painful treatment in the hospital since the first day of her admission after the tragic accident that killed her parents, her grandmother and her youngest brother.

from that accident, she sustained bilateral hips fracture, and burn at her right upper limb, part of her abdomen and thorax. this is one of the strongest kid i've ever met in my life. and i adore her, adore her cuteness, her sweetness and her courage.

initially, no one have a thought that she will survive, even can walk again. but today, she showed us that we were wrong. she even can walk although not as fast as others. and her recovery are so fast. and that's also one of the reason i adore her so much. trust me, u definitely will fall for her once she opens her small beautiful mouth, talking to you. so sweet.

and this part 3 are all about her.

actually, after celebrating my brother's birthday....we went to the HKT to visit her, together with the cake. once in her room, we lighted the candle and asked her to blow it. assume that, that day was also her birthday, or as a sign of reborn after going through a big trauma in her life. and i couldn't stop smiling, seeing how happy she was, blowing the candle and eating two big slices of the cake. and that day, her brother and her sis ( which also the victims in that road accident) were also in that room. came to visit her after a follow up in the orthopaedic clinic.

and my brother's birthday became much much more meaningful right. a beautiful way to celebrate the birthday. beautiful.

aidil, tasya and aisyah

see how happy she was that day

happy 'birthday' adik tasya!!!

lets pray for her fast recovery. we are planning to bring her to our house after discharge. so, at least, my mother got someone that can entertain her. and we already got the approval from her uncle. so, be healthy tasya....and be my little 'adik'. love you!

notakaki: this is the last part of CNY holiday.