they are part of us

*phone ringing....

mama: salam, watpe kak?

me: hehe duk rest kt bilik je. arini sakit satu bdn. trening td.

mama: ooooo rest la. sapu la minyak2 panas ke. ok skit kot.

me: emmm ok. mak watpe? kema ade lg ke kat umah?

mama: mak saje2 je. tgk tv. kema ade lagi kat umah nih. nak tau satu cite x?

me: cite la...

mama: emm td mak p anto syafiq g PSM (skolah memandu). kema nak ikut, jd mak bwk skali la. lepas abih daftar sume tu, mak anto la syafiq balik umah dia skali ng kema. lepas syafiq ngan kema trun tu, mak trus start keta nak balik. xtau kenapa. keta mcm jadi slow. then, mak tgk cermin pandang blakang. tau ape mak nmpk? mak nampak kema lari sorg diri kejar keta dari belakang. pahtu mak stop, kuar dr keta and kema taye knape tinggal dia. mak xleh jwb pe. masa tu mak nampak syafiq tgk dr jauh.

me: ala sedih ye....(mata bergenang)

this is a story about my mother and my new siblings. i know, they are craving for a love from someone called mother. and i dont mind sharing my mother with them. but then, something happen....

someone was unhappy about the strong bond between my mum and them. and saying something that even made me pissed off. this is the continuation of my want-to-kick-ass post. because of that, i told my mother to reduce the time with them, stop taking them home and trying to treat them like before their parents' death. and she did what i told her. we did that cause we dont want to be mark as 'melebih-lebih'. we want their attention more towards their close blood related relative compared to us.

you might think that im trying to separate my mum with them. but, actually im not. it just that, we was hurt and we are not closely blood related to them compare to that lady. so, we believe that she deserve them more than us. so, before it become worse, we decided to retract back. but, from what was happen today....the more we retract back, the more they run for us.

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im crying because kema also one of the passenger in that car. that car accident gave him fracture at right femur. the plate was planted inside his thigh. and he still cant walk properly. but today, he ran for my mother, with that unheal limbs.

he touched my heart...he did. just like others. and now, all i can say is...

they are part of us.