tonight, i've been staring at one form for 30mins and i still cant decide which hospital i want to work with. as you know, im in my final year in medical school, already almost at the end of it and now i have to fill one form to apply which hospital that i'm interested to attach with for my housemanship training for two years.
well, last weekend i went back home to discuss about it with my parents and i got different views about it from my mother and my father. hehe actually they always had different thought about almost everything, but quite impressed because the marriage still strong until now. kuasa jodoh tuhan.
ok ok back to my 'problem'....i need to decide within this week. THIS WEEK!. but im still dont know how to decide. i asked my dad but the answer is so simple. he said that he didnt want to interfere with my decision. because he believe that i am matured enough to make my own decision. whatever hospital that i pick, he gonna accept it. and he only can give some opinion in case i need one. thats my father.....one man that i am proud to have as a father. he teach me to be indipendent since i was a kid. and now i think being indipendent has become one part of myself.
different with my mother.....she wants me to be in Terengganu aka hospital sultanah nur zahirah. she wants me to be close to her. she even willingly to cook for me everyday if im working in terengganu. well...i know she is lonely. all children are staying outside terengganu. that's why she wants me to be in terengganu.
actually, HSNZ is already in the list. 1st choice. i pick this hospital because the nearest to my house. but that is not the only reason. i've been living outside of my house since i was 13 years old. now im 23 and it was almost 10 years staying outside and being indipendent. and during that time, i miss a lot of things. especially seeing my parents growing old and being strong time by time. i left my house when they still got black hair, nice smooth skin and now....i noticed there's white hair and wrinkles. and i dont even know when it started to come out.
for the other two empty boxes.....
i've thinking about HUSM because i'm already familiar with the enviroment, it is the 2nd nearest to my hometown, plus i still can involve in sport - the one that afraid most to left behind while im working. it is less busy compare to other KKM hospital, and i can get 'help' from medical students to do my job. plus...it can help me to be the future dean of USM's medical school. haha berangan lebey!. but then...the nurses not as friendly as in KKM. so still in 'comsi comsa'.
hospital putrajaya kind of attractive to my eyes. new hospital. less busy. and easier for me to go back to my hometown by plane. cost a lot of money but fast. so who cares. haha as long as i can get back to my hometown faster.
then....sabah and sarawak. trust me. this two states keep flashing in my head. well, to be excell in clinical skills or surgery and easily promoted for master program and etc.....sabah and sarawak are the best for that. i have a thought about going there since i am still single, free, not married and do not have any commitment to anyone except my father and my mum. so, why dont i try to go there rite? but.....am i ready for that? because i've never stay far from my house except during my matriculation time. tu pun slalu kelentong cari alasan nak balik every month. my school only 15mins from my house. and USM only 2 hours by car. and almost every weekend balik kg.
the other hospital is hospital kuantan. among the nearest to my hometown. considering......hehe
time is running out, and at the end....i have to decide. there's two empty boxes that need to be consider and i guess...i need your help. throw anything that u think better for me. maybe it can help me to decide.
so what should i do now?
continue staring at that blank form again and think.
p/s: oh god....it is quite a long post rite?
well, last weekend i went back home to discuss about it with my parents and i got different views about it from my mother and my father. hehe actually they always had different thought about almost everything, but quite impressed because the marriage still strong until now. kuasa jodoh tuhan.
ok ok back to my 'problem'....i need to decide within this week. THIS WEEK!. but im still dont know how to decide. i asked my dad but the answer is so simple. he said that he didnt want to interfere with my decision. because he believe that i am matured enough to make my own decision. whatever hospital that i pick, he gonna accept it. and he only can give some opinion in case i need one. thats my father.....one man that i am proud to have as a father. he teach me to be indipendent since i was a kid. and now i think being indipendent has become one part of myself.
different with my mother.....she wants me to be in Terengganu aka hospital sultanah nur zahirah. she wants me to be close to her. she even willingly to cook for me everyday if im working in terengganu. well...i know she is lonely. all children are staying outside terengganu. that's why she wants me to be in terengganu.
actually, HSNZ is already in the list. 1st choice. i pick this hospital because the nearest to my house. but that is not the only reason. i've been living outside of my house since i was 13 years old. now im 23 and it was almost 10 years staying outside and being indipendent. and during that time, i miss a lot of things. especially seeing my parents growing old and being strong time by time. i left my house when they still got black hair, nice smooth skin and now....i noticed there's white hair and wrinkles. and i dont even know when it started to come out.
for the other two empty boxes.....
i've thinking about HUSM because i'm already familiar with the enviroment, it is the 2nd nearest to my hometown, plus i still can involve in sport - the one that afraid most to left behind while im working. it is less busy compare to other KKM hospital, and i can get 'help' from medical students to do my job. plus...it can help me to be the future dean of USM's medical school. haha berangan lebey!. but then...the nurses not as friendly as in KKM. so still in 'comsi comsa'.
hospital putrajaya kind of attractive to my eyes. new hospital. less busy. and easier for me to go back to my hometown by plane. cost a lot of money but fast. so who cares. haha as long as i can get back to my hometown faster.
then....sabah and sarawak. trust me. this two states keep flashing in my head. well, to be excell in clinical skills or surgery and easily promoted for master program and etc.....sabah and sarawak are the best for that. i have a thought about going there since i am still single, free, not married and do not have any commitment to anyone except my father and my mum. so, why dont i try to go there rite? but.....am i ready for that? because i've never stay far from my house except during my matriculation time. tu pun slalu kelentong cari alasan nak balik every month. my school only 15mins from my house. and USM only 2 hours by car. and almost every weekend balik kg.
the other hospital is hospital kuantan. among the nearest to my hometown. considering......hehe
time is running out, and at the end....i have to decide. there's two empty boxes that need to be consider and i guess...i need your help. throw anything that u think better for me. maybe it can help me to decide.
so what should i do now?
continue staring at that blank form again and think.
p/s: oh god....it is quite a long post rite?
8 comments:
hmm napa dlm cite u x sbut peanng pun?dok nmpk mcm nak dpt penang je..hahahha...keep continue ur staring ye..gd luck
sbb penang x pernah masuk dlm list. hehe
I have no freaking idea where i want to go either... and its killing me, so yeah we are kind of in the same boat
same sinking boat!
sungai petani la weh
kalu kt sg petani, aku tmpg umah nenek and mak agkt la. senang skit. manatau jd cucu kesygan nanti.
cit podah..ok gak sya kedah..ko kan suke tgk padi..hahahahah..
hehe kentut ye noddy. kalu aku g kedah, nanti ko jeles tgk ktorg lepak sama2.
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