we got a name for her

salam everyone!

new update about my niece

well we got a name for the new baby!

it's Izzah Insyirah

sweet rite? as sweet as the baby...

and as the generous aunty sya (konon perasan) for the baby with full support towards exclusive breast feeding to the baby, i gave her a little bean's electric breast pump. so, her mother can expresed the breast milk easily and she can drink as much as she want and grow faster. of course....it dried out my saving. but for my lovely niece, i think it worth buying. so izzah, be a good girl k. haha

and special note to my dear brother, with my 'ciput' salary i can buy for ur baby a costly breast pump, i think with ur many K salary, i expect something BIG if i get pregnant and have a baby. haha

*twink twink

2 signs

every morning...when i was driving alone, with blood full with sleeping hormone, going to my workplace, i kept on thinking the same thing.

"which other field that i'm good at?"

" what other talent i got apart from playing doctor everyday?"

that questions kept on flashing in my head. that's not a good sign right? because for me, it's a sign that u dont have your heart on what u are doing right now. a sign of disappoinment of my own self. how much i didn't enjoy what i am doing right now.

the frustration keep rising up day by day. plus with so inhuman working hour, require you to keep awake for more than 24h.

i am strong, i always am! but i dont know, lately with exhausted mind and soul, that two questions are my best friends.

but you know what, no matter how hard my white and grey matter working for the solution, up until now, i'm still dont have the answer for that. and that is the obvious sign that i am meant to be a doctor for the rest of my life.

isyaNIA

the jewel of my heart

I am aunty sya!

hey, got a story here to share.

finally my dearly and only sis in laws just delivered a very beautiful baby girl, 3.37kg.

well god bless her. the process go so quick and easy.

the best part is, i am the one that conducted the delivery of my very first niece.up until now, im still quite in shock state. i didnt aim about being the one that conduct the delivery. but i did play around with my sis about that.emmm... about the story inside the labour room, i think better for me to keep that in my pocket.but about how i turned out to be the one that conducted the delivery? just assumed that i was taking the baton from the previous runner that want me to complete the rest of the trek.wait...i think almost the whole trek.hehe but thank god, no complication happen during and after that.

i am sure all of u want to see the pict of the baby right? well be patient. the pict will coming sooooooon.

baby...welcome to our family!

the chase that i crave for

"hey, will you be my girl? i know im not good looking, and have a lot of money, but i believe that i have a good heart for you to look at."

damn! that is the chase that i crave for!

Just be bold my dear.be bold.......

my other half.....

my best best best best BEST friend ever in my life is getting married. and honestly i am so happy for him, to see him moving forward looking for a happy life with his love one.

but at the same time...it feels like i'm going to lose someone who has been a shoulder for me to cry on for the past almost 10 years. it's inside, slowly tearing apart and leaving me.

it's mixed feeling............

playing with those tiny fingers

salam everyone...

im back to rock the blog. well, for the past 1-2 months ago, so many things happened.and of course sometime, it did change my view about something and towards something. well i knew that i've changed. being more mature and positive about my life, i hope!

so last february....i entered a new department. with a new enviroment and a lot of new things to be catched in short time. as usual la kan...

and it also means that....i survived the O+G posting. it was a not-so-good experience to me. and honestly i hate it. i just hate it.

my sis in laws also already reached the term period of pregnancy. the baby will be out in any time. and i am so excited to welcome the new member of our small family.

in my new posting aka pediatrics

the pressure also high. they just so high expectation. and it did pressure me a lot. so many things to be read again and again and again. this 1st 1 month, i was posted to neonatal ward which mean i have to handle those small tiny fingers that just 1-2h of life. initially i do have problem handling that tiny baby. but i guess i am quite good right now. haha

i'll update about my life again later. c ya!

I just could't say yes anymore

hey everyone!

did you enjoy ur raining season? me? em well as you know, i love rainy day. but with my working life, i have no oppurtunities to enjoy it. it even cause me become deppresed because i have to work on da rainy day. especially when you have to oncall in the weekend with rains pouring down cats and dogs.

im sure all of you want to see the update for my crazy life rite? it is still crazy, even much much more crazy than before. 2 years ago, i was so in love with obgyn. i even saw myself being part of them in da future. but after almost 3 months with them, too much flaws i saw. and i just can not accept the fact that all the mismanagement that occured in ward or in labour room was caused by us which also known as hamba orang (ho). when we did a mistake, they will bang the whole world about it. are we the bunch of people that only know how to make a mistake. it's hurt you know to accept the fact that the thing that you love 2 years ago now seem to be like an enemy to me. it really2 hurt.

but like what i always said before, life must go on. keep on put the smile on your face no matter how cruel they are. let them know that you are strong.

deeply from my heart,

isyania