what a nice beautiful day

today, we went to HPRZ II.
well, overall........it is awesome.

for the first time in 4th year, i did enjoy my day.
and today, i felt that i am a medical student.

well, thank you so much to DR SAKINAH who treat us sooooo well. at first, we were shocked with the warm welcome we got from the doctors and nurses in HPRZ II. then, we met dr sakinah who was responsible to teach us today. and she did teach us. with a lot of thing. and we were so damn happy until all of us want to come HPRZ II again. we dont mind to wake up early in the morning. we dont mind to wait for the bus. because, for the first time, we've been treat as a medical student. as undergrad student.

you know, all of us are sooooooo green about clinical. in our 2nd phase, we just touched the surface of clinical. but then, in phase 3, we've been treat like we all know about it. come on, that ilmu x jatuh dr langit.we need all these from doctors. because i believe that ilmu from buku is different from the ilmu from doctors. all the books are talking about teori but docs are talking about experience which i think much2 better to apply. but in HUSM, it is a bit different. the speacialist was so busy so then, they pass that responsible to the MOs that super damn busy. so, who's going to teach us???? Ayah pin???

but not all them are like that, just SOME of them.

and, i hate when i asked a question to the doctors, they fired me back. come on, i asked because i dont know or i dont understand. so, why dont you give that answer than firing me back. i hate it. i hate it. it make me look stupid and dumb.

then, the doctors always complaint about the decrease of the quality of fresh grad doc. i think only two things can cause these things happen. either the student are stupid and lazy or the lecturer did not teach them well. so, i think we need to sustain the balance. students need to study hard and smart and at the same time, the lecturers did their job. agree?????

what i like most today in HPRZ II is the instument for teaching. the slit lamp instrument got two 'teropong'. it means that, one for the doctor and one for the student. so, students can appreciate what is doctor looking at. and that thing should be in HUSM because HUSM is a teaching hospital. but i think, HUSM will buy that teropong in da future. well, we are apex uni. we need to maintain our standard.

well, thank you so much to DR SAKINAH for your priceless ilmu.

al-fatihah.....

saya x penah menangis atau sedih jika ahli politik meninggal dunia

tapi, semalam saya menangis apabila mengetahui kematian Dato' Razali Ismail.

pada saya, pemergian dia adalah terlalu awal tetapi Allah lebih sayangkan dia.

i started admire him when i was in high school. he came to my school(that time, he was Pengarah Pendidikan Terengganu) and giving such a beautiful inspiring speech to us.
he told us a story of a boy that always been bullied by some guys. one day, he came to one boxing club (crying) and told the coach that someone took his bicycle. that coach, gave him free boxing class. then, one day, that boy came to the boxing club with his bicycle.
a few years later, that boy become the world champion.
this is a story of Mohd Ali.
and because of this story, i become who i am today.

yesterday, my mother called us at home telling that news. because, my mother was there when he collapsed. they have some kind of kursus there. we were shocked especially my father because they are friends.

he told my dad before that his aim is to become Menteri Pelajaran Malaysia. tapi, dia hanya sempat utk timbalan menteri pelajaran sahaja.

semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya da digolongkan dalam golongan mereka yang beriman.

AL-FATIHAH.......

deeply sorry dear

*ting tong

he: good nite miss chubby wannabe.
she: hehe chubby wannabe. cam menarik je bunyi ye. nite!
he: hehe bla bla bla.....tringat la mg selalu melayang ditiup angin (kurus la maksud ye)
she: penah ke tgk aku melayang? macam dia x penah kurus.
he: penahla.
she: WHAT A BIG FAT STUPID LIE.
he: opps dia da marah........

well, actually, im not very mad. i just that, when you keep repeating and repeating and repeating the same thing, it become cliche. when it reach some level, it become annoying. i am not mad, i'm annoyed. that's it.

plus, i've changed. i know that im not chubby or curvy like other girls, it just that i've changed by time. maybe im still kurus, but i think not kurus cekeding like before.

i'm sorry dear, i am truly deeply sorry to say all those thing to you in that message. maybe im just tired. today, i left my room from 830am until 730pm. so damn tired. with all the clinic, presentation and KO-K. then i have to prepare the proposal for CFCS program for tomorrow's meeting.plus, maybe some hormonal changes.

but, this is my confession. you are my best friend. my super best friend. i've known you since my school life and i never regret it. because, we have a lot of similarities. whatever happen in our life, never change my impression to you. because you are my best friend. sometimes, i feel like you know me more than i do. you know when i lie to you, you know when i have a problem and you know how to comfort me.

the best thing about you, you always remember me when you wanna sleep by sending me a message. thank you for always be there for me because i know that i'm not that good to you.

THANK YOU....

today is a OT day

huhu today is the OT day.

OT=operation teater

huhu penat. arini dalam sejarah, we stayed in that OT from 9-5pm. macam surgeon da. well, we observed 3 operations from 5. but, the last patient that supposed to be operated came late. so, that is why we stucked there until 5pm.

pagi, da lapar ble sampai ke OT. but dont worry, our OT just like Oren Kafe. a lot of foods. seriously, mmg banyak. just make sure you bring enough money or then you will end up with saliva secretion while watching you friends eat that food. hehe

today, we went for lunch around 1130 am. makan2 sampai x hengat dunia. then, we came back to OT to observed the last operation. well, we need to do all this to get that valueable signature from our specialist. because this is ophthalmology posting, all we can see is EYES. it is quite uncomfortable for me to watch that red eyes. well, yela kalu bulu mata jatuh pun kite da rasa x best, inikan nak bukak, gunting and jahit mata kite, of course lagi x best kan.

sebab letih menunggu patient yg lambat sampai, ktorg lapar balik. dengan hujan kat luar and suhu OT yg sejuk, mane x lapar ye. then, nurin beli kuih comel. ktorg belasah sampai abih. then noddy pun beli kek pisang, x sampai 10 min kek tu lesap masuk perut kami.

Kek pisang yg best meletop!!!

bila masuk OT, ktorg mmg da penat sgt2 da. noddy siap tido kat dalam OT. tp, x sempat nk amik gambo dia. hehe next tima la. jrg2 leh dpt tgk noddy tido.

tapi, walupun letih, kami happy. sebab da dapat 5 sign yg cukup untuk requirement OT. hehe thanks doc.

Muka teruja dapat makan kek pisang.

the last lecture

a few months ago, i borrowed a novel from my friend. the title is....

"The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch.

i think it is a good book to read. a very good book to read. because it is full with inspiring words and story.

this book is the real story about the author, Prof Randy Pausch.

if you playing a lot with internet, i think you'll know about him. last 2 years, he became an internet sensation about his "last lecture". just type his name at youtube, and you can watch his last lecture.

actually, he was a computer science professor at Carnegie Mellon. he achieved a lot of things in his life before he was diagnosed to have pancreatic cancer and it is a terminal disease. because he is a lecturer at that time, he decided to give his last lecture. but the lecture he gave, "really achieving your childhood dreams" wasnt about dying. it was about the importance of overcoming obstacles, of enabling the dreams of others, of seizing every moment. it was about LIVING.

He did everything to longer his life including doing the "whipple surgery". in this surgery, the surgeon will remove the pancreas, duodenum, some part of liver and stomach. very radical. then, he need to undergo chemotherapy. for me, to get through all these obstacles, he must be a very strong man. but then, a few months later, the cancer metastasize to his liver and all the doctor can do is giving him a palliative @ supportive care only.

he accepted it and enjoyed his life till the end.

he died on 25th of July 2008 at the age 47.

seriously, if you have time and enough money, go and grab this book.no regret. because i already read it twice. it means, this book is enjoyable.

dari mata jatuh ke hati

huhu today is the very first day of ophthalmology posting.

overall.........macam best jer

well, this morning, kinda very2 liat to wake up. because the wheather and the rain is sooooooo nice to make me sambung my dream. but, 830am i need to be in the ophthalmology department.

nothing much today. just packed with all the introduction and the lectures about eyes and fundoscopy(instrument to check the inner part of your eyes)

but, when i look at the timetable......i was soooooooooo sad. because within this only 2 weeks posting + 1 week exam, we have a lot of tutorials, seminars, clinics and OTs.

plus, there's no holiday one day before the hari raya haji. and i cant ponteng that sunday because i have to on call that night. it means, i will be back home on hari raya haji. sooooooo x best.
sometimes, cam kesian tgk noddy busy2 nak balik while the others cam xde perasaan nak balik.
biarkan dorg noddy. dorg mesti xnak balik sebab umah dorg x best. haha

well, azam baru for this posting. there's no more last minutes keja. hehe bleh caye ke neh.

well, i'll try. you'll never know until you try right. but, in my case i did try in my past 2 postings, but no improvement. well, maybe this posting ade improvement kot. KOT.

tag!!!

well, aku diTAG oleh nurul and noddy. kenalah jawab sehabis jujur. nurul n noddy, ni jawapan jujur aku. korg cubala carik sape yg aku duk pikir neh.hahahaha

Try to answer it as good as you can
Every question is referring to ONE person

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
emmmm.......kawan

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
pandai jaga ati
sweet talker
banyak persamaan ng i
pemegang rahsia terbaik di dunia
matang

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
xde ye.....cume adela satu yg xleh ditulis utk tantapan umum. sori ek.

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you.
be strong isya. be strong because you just like a pearl that been hiding under the shell.
once you matured and open you shell, people will know how priceless you are.
*that line make me melayang you know.

5. If he/she become your lover, you will...
let my mother knows about it

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...
cry kot

7. If he/she become your lover, he has to improve on...on his/her
nothing, i know you for ages.

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
dont know. malas nak pikir bab2 negatif neh

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
hahaha, travel around da world kot.

10. The overall impression of him/her is..
sweet.

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
sume suke i except noddy. haha

12. The character of you for yourself is?
a lot of fun

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
pemalas, kuat tido, lembab

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
hello, perlu ke letak kat cni. he might be reading my blog.

15. For the people who likes you, say something about them.
thanks a lot for all the trust and support you give me.

16. Ten people to tag:
sume da ditag. perlu ke letak lagi???
noddy
nurul
meezan
mejoh
ceghi yg xde blog
dalina
ain
c-ra
q'long
diqma

17. Who is no.2 having a relationship with??
encik fairuz

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
male

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
hello...haram

20. How about no. 5 and 8?
ishk xbleh xbleh

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
medic

22. Is no. 4 single?
double

23. Say something about no. 6 and 9..

i want to be like him, much2 better than him...

hi, just arrived to usm. what a short weekend. well, when everyone is sleeping and enjoying their long holiday, i am still here. in USM terchenta. so jealous with you all guys.....

well there's a story. about my brother. my DEAR brother. my ONLY brother.

balik aritu, i kira2 new salary of my brother. and it just around rm12-rm13k per month. well...not too high i think. because if he pass the coming exam in this december, the salary will be around rm1000 per day.

all i can say about my brother is LUCKY. he is soooooooo LUCKY.

my brother went to school from 10am until 12pm but me went to school from 730am until 2pm.
my brother was a mat rempit but me, a super nice girl that only stay at home and hostel.
my brother only has a diploma and some 'high rank' certificates but me now in the road to be a doctor aka MD.
my brother never been depressed because of studying and exam but me, depressed and tension almost all the time.
my brother never got straight A's, far from half straight A's but me, althought there's no straight A's but nearly to straight A's.
my brother can get rm3000 for 10 days working, but i have to work a month plus on call to get rm4000.
the different is i will get a lot of pahala than him by saving lives.

that's why i feel and think that my brother is lucky.

at 25, he can buy a nice car, nice house, branded clothes, and have a nice makwe. now, he is planning to buy a new motorbike.sooo lucky.

well it doesnt matter.

if you can buy a LATIO, i'll get BMW. if you can have a bungalow, i'll build a villa. if you can wear all those branded clothes, i'll get one for myself.hehe

to my dear brother, i am so proud of you. honestly, i am proud of you. i want to be like you but much2 better than you.

well, im writing this blog because i want to 'bodek' you. your sis da sengkek neh.
hahahahahaha